A Long Road Back Up

So I have decided to create a place where you can view my actual thoughts and feelings, this is a place where I will be the most open and honest. I will also post things that are going on in my life, I will give my opinions on current events, I will share things that interest me, or things that I enjoy and would love to share with you. This blog will be updated bi-weekly probably.

Now, for my first actual "blog."

I've decided that I want to have people clawing at my shirt, fighting for anything I throw at them, screaming my name, and being too shy to talk to me once again. You might say "That's kind of cocky!", well yes, it is. At least i'm being honest. If you have never had a "fan-base" you probably wouldn't understand this.  Now that my old band, Pat The Human, is rotting in it's grave it's time to take a new road in life, one that I am more comfortable walking down. Myself and a good friend of mine, Stephen Beres (former three time member of Pat The Human) have started several projects since the band's departure. We have tried for an "Enter Shikari" type sound, we tried to blend elements of Classical and Metal and come up with a "Protest The Hero" type sound, we even tried our hand at rap (what the fuck, seriously?). With a recent turn of events we have decided to simply say "FUCK IT!" We are going to do what we do best, make some badass Metal music, hard, in-your-face shit. Our goal before was to make something that everyone could enjoy, music that would bring different groups of people together to enjoy something in common, but you know what? Fuck that. I want to do what I want and if you don't like it, I could honestly care less. I live for myself. Not you, not him, not them, not her. Someday I know my ways will change, I will evolve, mature, and grow... someday. For now I will do what I want. Music is my life and will continue to be as long as I still have a voice. 

I don't really like what music has become latley, it is more than apparent that it has become a trend, a pathetic joke. People putting on "masks" and acting as if they are talented in some way. For friends who read this you might think I am talking directly about my friends in the band, The Hit, i'm not. They all know I hate their music, I love Colin Stevic, Jorge Garcia, Josh Beck, Kade Holloway, Alex Mariscal, and even that grimey, scum-fuck Mike Ray. I know that they actually enjoy the music they create. I'm talking about the people around them, i'm talking about the kids who put on a hat, a hoody, and some gym shorts and hop around stage screaming about how much drinking sucks. I am talking about the kids that do up their hair just to get on stage and screw it up. I am talking about pretty much every local band these days. Everything from Hardcore to Pop Punk, you all suck. All of you except for select few, and i'm sure if you ever read this you will know who you are.  We are friends, or at least great aquintances.

With all of that said, I would love to get back some old friends and make some new ones. I have been trying latley and it has been great seeing people i've drifted so far from, or people I never knew existed until recently. Shane Ray, Drew McDonald, and Mike Wilson in particular, if you ever have the opportunity to hangout, party, have a converstation, or what whatever with any of these people, you should take it. They are all great, smart, and funny men.

As I come to a close i'd like to leave you with one last paragraph. I know the road back will be a long one with potholes here and there. Here are a few of my goals to get to where I want to be, i'd love for you to help me achive them if you are someone I hangout with or someone who cares about my well-being. I'd like to lose some weight (I will probably become annorexic again, but who cares? I'll look damn great in a couple months.) I'd like to meet some new people, or hangout more with some old ones (You know who you are, hit me up!). I'd like to find a complete band to make this dream a reality (If you know some talent musicians that want to tour, please send them my way!). These are the only ones I could think of that are relevant to this blog. I'll post another one later this week probably. If you have read this in it's entirety, I really appreciate it. I'd love to hear some feedback.